And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
From my fav poetry well it is fav poetry of I guess half the Indians. So I lost ISB... To be honest as much as I whine n crib I did think I'll make it to ISB. Funnily this was my safe school at the same time I was never big on it.
It may be easy for some to say well if ur heart wasn't in it then may be that showed. Well it did not, I just suck at being expressive about myself which means essays interviews take a lot out of me.
But today I'm not analyzing what went wrong at ISB, I want to talk about how to handle failures.
I'm not the only one out there. First off anything requires a backup plan. The better your backup plan, the safer you are and quicker you recover. When I said in ISB interview that I have back up plan... Well I do. Its good to be confident but it is equally essential to stay grounded. I've heard counter arguements to my theory that if u begin with thinking I might fail then chances of failure increase. The point here is to begin with success in mind and still keep in mind the what if sky falls... Impossible itself says its possible.
As important the backup planning is, it has to be achievable and yet something that will make u happy. My applications started with schools I yearn for and I've had back schools at every stage and no I'm not giving up, not just yet.
Even with the realistic school planning, I have looked at other courses that I can go for besides MBA. All said and done MBA to me is means to achieve something. So yes I have looked at other easier to get into courses which won't pay me so well but will also cost me a fifth of what an MBA would. And yes I have even thot of situation where I don't go for full time studying or studying at all.
The other thing while applying for MBA is that some of us leave everything else. Remember this is only a part of your regular life not the only thing you do for 6 or 8 months. After spending time with extra focus on MBA apps, I have now started applying for jobs, because if not MBA I do need shift in work I do. I have also taken additional responsibilities at work, and am glad my boss didn't hold them from me. I also built trust with him that even if its ISB and I have to go, i will ensure my work is stabilized before I leave.
All said and done its never easy to deal with failures and when it's continued for quite a few months. I had ppl ask me 2-3 times when I said I dint get ISB. Yes it did make me feel worse but now when I think it sounds like ppl believe I deserve it. If I deserve to be at ISB then well there are other competitive schools.
Aomfirat I blabbered about back plans n MBA as means to something. Now let me blabber on what I did to cope with the huge setback.
First, I had a hunch ISB will be negative since two days before the result were due - my intuition isn't all that bad. I kept wishing n willing it to be positive.
When I did see it's negative, I came home n got into bed at 8. I dint want to talk to anyone so informed ppl of result over text msg n asked them to not call. Then I went on overdose of chocolate for two days. It did help a bit.
Next day there was too much work in office and I cudnt bail out. Unfortunately my work is all ppl interaction. It weirdly worked to help me, nothing gives a better kick to a trainer than to see ppl find benefits from my work. And I did a fairly okay job with my trg program. In t eve I knew I needed vodka and some break. Bryan adams came to my rescue. Went to a friends place to listen to Bryan adams concert with vodka n munchies n random conversations. He stays near the concert venue so we sat in his balcony and stayed away from the mad crowd. Late nite dinner back home. Took a day off to rest and ease my head.
Redefined my backup plans. Emailed previous school for feedback. Emailed all my friends who have and can help me plan next steps and scheduled phone time with them.
Thats what is surviving me thru yet another failure... A rather unexpected one. Do I feel okay yet, not completely but I can manage thru anything and will be fine in a few days.
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